I feel I'm loosing control
Cuz you can't deny
You've blown my mind

I can fix all those lies
Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?

All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

baby i still miss you so much,

and i need you badly.

lets play all whole night long.

heart to heart, lust connects.

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go,
Don't let go
To my love.

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

Cuz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm loosing control
Cuz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go.

I hate to see you cry
Your smile is a beautiful lie
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside

I can fix all those lies
Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

Cuz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm loosing control
Cuz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go.

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
Don't let go,
Don't let go
To my love.

I hate to see you cry, your smile is a beautiful lie

I hate to see you cry, my love is dying inside(x3)

I can fix all those lies
Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you
Oh baby I've tried to make the things right,
I need you more than air when I'm not with you,
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I

EH FUCK YOU

what should i do now?

what can i do now?

i seriously still want him back.

the time of not hearing from each other seemed to have pulled us apart.

didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be,

which is.. hoping him.. learn to appreciate me more.

what are we?

are we even a we?

too many secrets lied behind..

too many assumptions made (for this, i have assumed this already, lol)

too many voices havent been heard.

too many stories havent been told.

sorry that i couldnt be a girl who clubs like crazy..

drinks like mad..

hugged and forget..

kissed and forget..

fuck then forget.

i miss you most of the time,

but when i have more faith back in you..

somehow things happened to take it away.

i love you very much even we never had been together.

i learnt you, and appreciate the smallest things you did for me..

and love you, for who you are and threw all your stories behind.

because of you, i learnt to forgive and forget.

and i mean it.

i miss you most of the time.

maybe i should move on.

300TH POST!

HI EVERYONE OUT THERE!

DOING WELL?

I HOPE YOU DO..

I AM PUSHING MYSELF TO BE THE BEST!

ever ready to be in best, facing every single second of happiness or even sadness of life.

yes i can do it!

i am loving myself more,

and then,

i shall have a better ability to start loving someone else.

what normal quotes do say "start loving yourself before you love others right?"

just like getting a puppy, if you cant handle yourself, hmmm... can you handle a puppy? :O

LOL

im preparing myself for these upcoming days! weeeeee~!

YES EVERYONE SHOULD TOO RIGHT?

:D

CHEERS FOR A BRIGHTER FUTURE!

CHEERS FOR UPCOMING GREAT DAYS!

and i saw this at twitter.

"The difference between a new boyfriend and a new dog:

after a year the dog is still excited to see you. (LOL)"

okay! have a magnificent day ahead alright!

love, PENNY!

hmm, im a Chinese.

Chinese tradition, the respect and care towards your own family are the sole elements.

Chinese New Year is coming in just a few days time,

and i happened to drop by my friend's Facebook wall.

she shared this short clip from Petronas.

it has shown the era of busy people nowadays, and yet, behind them, there are people who care and love them full heartedly.

showing what they do, what we face, and what people feel inside.

here you go..

a clip that i watched and my tears just rolled down like that.

it touched my heart, and i hope it touches yours too. :)

i dedicate you...

appreciate the ones around you.

appreciate every words they say to you..

our grandparents, our parents, our love ones.

people come and people go too!

appreciation will save you from unforgivable guilts of yours from time to time.

right here,

i shall send all my best wishes and blessings towards my love ones including my Family and Friends.

yes, you too, my readers. ♥

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE.

IM STUCK WITH THIS SONG!

yes, this is the song what i'm talking about.

despite the very steamy and sexy mtv and also the lyrics,

one of the reasons that i like it is because this song is composed with varies types of genres (is it correctly said?),

as what i meant was there are R&B, ACAPELLA?, ELECTRO!

a very very nice and creative mix and composure of music.

and for me, a person who prefers things are bold and new,

yes this is the song which i'm currently listening to it from time to time.

hmm, this song reminds me about somebody who has given me one of the biggest impact on life.

thinking of all the things that had happened along the year,

i know there is a need of changes, seriously.

to turn things right, even for a lil, at least.

anyhow, actions speak louder than words!

PENNY! GET EVERYTHING STARTED AND BE DISCIPLINE!

so, lets see..

SEX DRIVE... SEX DRIVES!

does it drive you?

whenever anyone tells me that they are not interested in sex,

eventually i will listen, but then a pop up convo in my own mind saying

"Ms. or Mr. anthropology studies shown and stated sex is the basic and primary drive of living."

anyway, just a random post.

just that happened to read across a few articles.

one of it was about sex positions.

and this really really caught my attention.

goodnight people.

i have edited this post, it was pretty bimbo-ishly written. lol

it annoyed me, so ya.

so, this, the actual one right now.

when i went Taiwan, i put on contact lenses.

people thought that i was a mix of angmo and chinese which is white and chinese.

then i told my friends, one of them actually said i got the look in me. lol

(not my size okay... is the look, HAHAHA)

NOW, i went Hatyai, people thought i am a mix also. lol

anyhow, im a Chinese, eh sometimes I still stick to Chinese tradition a lot!

come i shall share a little.

when i was a kid, like around 4 to 5 years old,

around 10 mins walk away from my house has a temple which often holds up ceremony for any traditional celebration.

so, my grandma and my maid would bring me there to look at the celebrations.

the Chinese Opera and the fancy costumes they wore while performing gave me a very different feeling and impression towards it.

i wouldnt say that i liked it when i was young, but right now,

the art of chinese opera roots in me.

i like the costume a lot, just like the China's emperor's concubines' clothings and all.

the colourful detail and sequins, not to forget the designs and all of it amazes me.

not that i would wear them, but subconsciously,

when i draw and all, i do will think of these.

even if i am going to design something for my project,

if i would get to design without restrictions,

OH YEAH! WAIT FOR MY EASTERN CONTEMPORARY DESIGN YO! hahaha

im Proud to be a Chinese.

anyhow...

CONTACT LENSES ARE QUITE AWESOMEEEE. LOL

9.57am!

leaving to Thailand in awhile!

was browsing through my Picture folder.

WHOOOOOOO MY FACE IS ROUNDER LATELY

HORRORRRRRRRR

OH NOOOOOOOOOOO